YES!!!!

although I will not be there for Larrys bday, it seems as if  I will be there for Kate's. I AM SOOOOO EXCITED.

There were days that I ached so much inside myself I did not think I would make it another day. I hope we can rebuild and enjoy each other again and as a family. I know nohting is ever perfect , no marriage is and I am sure over the years we will have issues too. But we are strong...and learn.
 People do go though hard times and with love and faith we can may it through. I am SO BLESSED in my life with Larry and Katelyn. I miss my mom alot too and I know she is in good hands. Now I have to start planning on the way of getting things down there and to see how it can fit into Dales schedule. Hoping for a safe trip......to the arms of my family again. I know it will be a little differant at first since we havent seen each other since aug....but we will make it though. I mentioned a little something about renewing our vows...we will see how that goes.

I WILL FINALLY BE WHOLE AGAIN.

cards

I send cards to you two all the time....I dont want to send cards anymore or miss any more days. You asked me to come home...And I think we are FINALLY going to be together again. Dont have an exact date yet, but sometime around Kates bday I think and I don't know if we will tell her or not or if I will just show up. I just hope she is happy to see mom. I know I will be whole again and that's all I ever wanted.

Its a step in the right direction and I cant wait. Have to give notice at work and some time for the apts. Not much they can do anything, think they have to just let me out of it. I HOPE SO.I DONT GIVE A SHIT WHAT WORK or the apts thinks..

I was blogging to take the pain and put it into words ....it didnt bring much relief but it was something. But nothing beats the warmth of the touch of your husband and kid.