Your hand in mine...

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my movements are slow, my speech seems to be impaired, my thoughts are imcomplete. My body aches with pains every moment of my days. I long for the reason of why my life is being treated this way. Its hard to make people understand when I don't have the answers myself. I know I need to seek a resolution, if for anything to know I am not crazy. I can't even take your hand when I can't hold mine up for but a moment. I weep within my soul and it shows in my eyes the dispare and longing of freer moments. I know I am not alone with the way that I feel but it is hard to seek those that I do not know, I can not look if I do not know where to start. I know you want to help me, but you do not know how or where to start. Not do I for that matter. We can look into each others soul and wish it away and ignore it but in time, that will make it worse.
Please, pick up my hand for me and lay it into yours.....I need you...I love you I dont know how to cope without you. I miss our life so very much. You are all I ever wanted in my life and I dont know what is going on.Being with you two is all I want in my life....Schmoopie...xoxo

Monday, Oct 10, 2005 -

He is there with me....

Repost from my Yahoo 360 weblog

He is there with me everyday, asking nothing more of me. His hand is always reaching for me. Sometimes I just want to shut myself away from the world, and he doesnt let me.How blessed am I to have a man in my life that loves me for me. I have not been an easy one to love, thats for sure, but I do know my heart is golden and my love will always be there.A green eyed boy loves this brown eyed girl

I Will Be Here(Steven Curtis Chapman)
Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here
I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here
I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here
I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here.
Wednesday, Oct 5, 2005